09-01-09
and the water is rising quick (part III)
we’re not telling people. only family. when you tell people, they freak out.
when you tell people, it becomes real.
“God’s hand is all over this,” she says. It is. Of course it is.
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we wait almost a week for the tests to come back. it was the longest few days of my life.
a phone call. she’s crying. “benign,” she says. my relief is almost as physical as the burden. i can’t talk much. don’t know what to say.
thank you thank you thank you thank you…..
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it doesn’t even feel real, but something has permanently shifted—my faith, my trust. the airplane might fall out of the sky but His hand is over and under the plane.
you’ve helped me remember that other people’s lives are not in my hands. that i can’t “save” the people i love. only Jesus can. i can’t fix them, i can’t open their eyes, i can’t heal them. God is big enough, and He is on it already. this thought brought me peace last night.
thank you.
09-01-09 » 9:54 am »
BIG GOD,little me…He uses these kind of things to “shift our faith”. I’m SO glad He’s in control and not me.
I know that feeling of “relief” it’s heavy.
09-03-09 » 10:05 am »